…there was light…

“Sam saw a white star twinkle for a while… and hope returned to him.
For the thought pierced him that in the end the shadow was only a small and passing thing:
there was light and high beauty for ever beyond its reach”

~J.R.R. Tolkien
Return of the King

These words of Tolkien are so powerful and especially touching at this moment in time because he reminds us that there is strength in the darkness. Hope is never lost, and there is still so much beauty in the world beyond what we can see right now. Better days will come, and the light will always shine in the end… Never forget that.

December’s last breath

a final exhale

drifts off in the wind

scattering memories like ashes

to be visited once again

the blue sky fades away

and everything becomes new

another year is born

from December’s last breath

The new year is on its way, and I think most of us can agree that leaving 2020 behind is quite a relief. Looking back, it is astounding how much can change in a matter of months, weeks, and even a day. To be honest, I learned more this year than I ever imagined, but I grew so much stronger through every fear, uncertainty, hurt, and disappointment. Although it is easy to focus on everything that went wrong, it is important to remember all the things that went right like welcoming my baby brother into the world, moving to a beautiful new house, graduating high school, and attending a university honor’s program. Overall, I feel like this year helped me become a better version of myself, and I am grateful for all of the things that I learned despite the hard times.

One of my resolutions for 2021 is making the conscious effort to write more even if it is only once a week or so. I do not intend to force words on a page, but I know that reminding myself to frequently write (even in a personal journal) will help me become more in sync with my thoughts and emotions…Writing always use to be the thing that I would revert to when things got hard, but I definitely didn’t do that this year which only made things harder. Nonetheless, I want to continue to improve my writing, so I think becoming more active is a great resolution.

That being said, I wrote a little free verse poem in honor of the coming year that I hope you find enjoyable… Here is to new beginnings, and a Happy New Year!

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IMG_1413Hello!

It has been awhile since my last post, and I cannot believe how fast time has flown. The past two weeks have honestly been quite an adjustment as I tried get back into a routine, but I think I have figured things out now… As busy as I was, I have to admit that I really did miss blogging, so it is nice to be writing again.

My college experience has been pretty great so far, and I am so happy with my decision to attend this university. The campus is absolutely gorgeous, but I will say that the pandemic is really wearing on me… It’s unfortunate that my freshman year had to be filled with mandatory mask policies, social distancing orders, and hesitation to study in any of the common areas. I know this will all go away soon, but things are a little odd right now. I really love my classes though, and I am excited to continue this semester.

I also want to thank everyone for your continuous support despite of my lack of activity because it really means a lot. I hope that you are all doing well, and I am so glad to be back. Until next time!

4th of July, 2020

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Hola,

I hope you guys had a fantastic 4th of July!

The Fourth is my family’s biggest celebration, and we typically host a huge party with friends and neighbors. This year was quite different, however, but we still had a great time! Although the pandemic took away our party, it did not take away our annual firework show… Every year, neighbors contribute to a massive firework pile that never fails to blow me away (literally).

There is something special about that burst of color against the night sky, and I look forward to it every single year. As firecrackers, sparklers, and fireworks filled the night, all of my worries kind of faded away, and I was able to truly live in the moment. I especially needed that this year, so it was awesome! How did you celebrate?

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Happy Independence Day 2020!

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Wow, it’s been quite awhile since I actually sat down to write. To be honest, it was difficult for me to find the words to say with everything going on, and my creativity was almost non existent as I became stuck in what felt like an endless time-loop. Life was (and still is) like reliving the exact same day over-and-over again… I wake up staring at the same wall wondering how I am going to spend yet another twenty-four hours in quarantine. Whenever I would try to write, my thoughts would remain trapped, and the only thing that I could do was stare at a blank screen and blinking cursor until finally deciding to walk away. Inspiration faded, and writer’s block had inevitably taken over.

Instead of fighting it, I decided to accept it and step away for awhile. I did not want my passion for writing to diminish completely by forcing words down, so I waited. And waited. Until eventually, they began flowing again…

I have not forgotten about you guys, and I am going to try to become more active on this space. I love writing, and I am looking forward to many more posts to come. I hope that you are all doing well, and I would love to hear from you in the comments! It has been so long!

Has anything new or exciting happened recently? What have you been up to? Has quarantine been giving you writer’s block as well? How do you cope with it? Thanks for reading!