trapped thoughts

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Wow, it’s been quite awhile since I actually sat down to write. To be honest, it was difficult for me to find the words to say with everything going on, and my creativity was almost non existent as I became stuck in what felt like an endless time-loop. Life was (and still is) like reliving the exact same day over-and-over again… I wake up staring at the same wall wondering how I am going to spend yet another twenty-four hours in quarantine. Whenever I would try to write, my thoughts would remain trapped, and the only thing that I could do was stare at a blank screen and blinking cursor until finally deciding to walk away. Inspiration faded, and writer’s block had inevitably taken over.

Instead of fighting it, I decided to accept it and step away for awhile. I did not want my passion for writing to diminish completely by forcing words down, so I waited. And waited. Until eventually, they began flowing again…

I have not forgotten about you guys, and I am going to try to become more active on this space. I love writing, and I am looking forward to many more posts to come. I hope that you are all doing well, and I would love to hear from you in the comments! It has been so long!

Has anything new or exciting happened recently? What have you been up to? Has quarantine been giving you writer’s block as well? How do you cope with it? Thanks for reading!

Before the dawn

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“Night is always darker before the dawn

and life is the same, the hard times will

pass, every thing will get better and

sun will shine brighter than ever.”

~Ernest Hemingway

During a time like this, it can be difficult to see the light in the struggle, and negativity seems to surround us in the aftermath of COVID-19… Fear continues to grow, and so many people are left desperate for relief as the impact becomes more widespread.

It is easy to feel consumed in this darkness, but it is our own decision how we are going to react to it. There is still so much to be thankful for, and we must keep these things close to heart despite the hardships. Things will not stay this way forever, and there is always sunshine behind the storm. Remember Ernest Hemingway’s words and know that hope is never lost. It may take some time to get back up, but when we do, we will be stronger than we ever were before!


I just wanted to share this inspiring poem because it is so relevant to what we are all going through right now. I hope that this reflection was moving or gave you a new perspective as it did for me… Feel free to share your own poems or quotes in the comments section, and I hope that you have¬† a great rest of the week!

A letter to my mom

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Mom,

You have been there for me since day one, and you have raised me to become the person that I am today. You are so inspiring and never cease to amaze me with all that you do… From saving lives in the emergency room to starting a successful business of your own, you are one of the strongest people that I know, and you are definitely someone to look up to. You have given me opportunities that most people never get to have, and you have been one of my biggest supporters for my entire life. I hope your day is as special as you are to me… I love you so much, mommy.

Happy Mother’s Day!!

Class 2020!

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Wow, senior year has come to a close, and I have officially completed high school! So much happened over the past four years, and it’s crazy to look back… Every experience, both good and bad, made me who I am today, and I am so thankful for all of the great memories.

This year was, by far, the most challenging, and my life was completely engulfed with change. It was quite overwhelming, and I was really afraid of regret especially when I made the decision to stop pursuing dance. Despite the challenges, I kept moving forward, and I became so much stronger through the process which made this achievement so much more rewarding. I have no regrets, and I am so excited to see what the future has in store for me.

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From football games, homecoming, prom, and extra coffee, high school was one heck of an adventure, and I will never forget all of the good times. Now, I am off to study Business/Marketing in a university honors college, and I am very excited! I also wanted to give a big congrats to all of the other seniors out there, and cheers to the next few years!! We did it!!

Baby Boy!

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It was a very exciting weekend for my family as this little guy entered the world, and I honestly teared up as I held him for the first time. My new baby brother is so precious, and God has truly blessed my family. I am looking forward to all of the wonderful memories that we will share, and I am so lucky to be his big sister… My heart is so full.

Welcome to the world, sweet Cole!

Being present

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Quarantine isn’t all bad.

I think most people can agree that quarantine isn’t necessarily fun, and no one wants to be trapped inside for weeks. However, this process of slowing down has highlighted how chaotic our daily lives truly are. We are so use to rushing around all the time that we have become blinded by the constant distraction, and it has showed us how much we habitually go through the motions every single day. Honestly, I have been thinking about the past few years of my own life, and I realized how absent I have been in my family. I guess I never fully understood the impact that my busy schedule had on my life at home, and I started to see how much I have been missing. There were many nights that I wouldn’t be home for dinner, and I certainly didn’t have time to garden, bake, play family games, or take a walk with my sister like I do now. My mind was just so cluttered, and I often let my “seriousness” interfere with my true happiness. The past few weeks have taught me the importance of being present… Although my busy schedule will eventually resume, I am going to be more mindful about how I spend my time and always be sure to set some aside for those who matter most. I love you mom and dad! Thanks for reading, and I hope you are all doing well. What is something quarantine has taught you?

Recent Highlights

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No, I have not disappeared off the face of the blogosphere, but my long absence has definitely left me with a lot of catching up to do around here… I really appreciate all of your sweet comments, likes, nominations, and follows since I have been gone! I didn’t mean to take a long break, but I honestly needed time to get my life together. I hope that you are all doing well, and it’s nice to be back. Here are some recent highlights…¬†

  1. I became an adult… Hello 18!
  2. I began my first job as a part-time cashier.
  3. I was accepted into a university’s Honors College!
  4. I performed one last time in a contemporary piece last month.
  5. I have been in self-quarantine for about thirteen days.
  6. All of my classes have converted to online for the rest of the semester, and I will officially graduate in May!

Wow, that’s a lot, but that pretty much sums up the past two months… What have you guys been up to lately? Do I have any special post requests? Be sure to keep an eye out for more content because I have some fun ideas that I am looking forward to sharing. Please stay safe, and thanks for reading!

Not Alone

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I never expected 2020 to accompany one of the greatest pandemics that has ever faced the world… I don’t think any of us saw this coming on January 1st when fireworks and streamers lit up the sky to celebrate the new year. Merely three months later, schools are closed, businesses are shutting their doors, grocery stores are almost empty, and people are in self-quarantine to prevent the Coronavirus from spreading any further.

It is okay to be afraid during a time like this, and it is okay to be worried. However, we must not allow these emotions to overpower our faith, and we must understand that some things are truly beyond our control. No amount of anxiety will change the situation, so the best thing that we can do to right now is to stay in, stay sanitized, and stay faithful.

“Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand” (Isaiah 41:10).

“Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me” (Psalm 23:4).

I can’t promise that you won’t get sick, but I can promise that you are not alone. We are all going through this together, and we will overcome this. Please take care of yourselves and know that you are all in my prayers. Stay safe!

beach glass

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in my hand I hold a story

washed away by the sands of time

 

a fragment of the past

beaten and forgotten

stripped from depths that never saw the light

 

lost among the wreckage

of a perilous journey for years

it somehow found its way to me

 

but I cannot retell its tale

for its origins are still a mystery

forever lost under the waves

 

through all the uncertainty,

I know that I am holding

a connection to the past

 

a beautiful piece of beach glass


I recently took a walk along the shore and recovered a few pieces of beach glass that inspired me to write this. I began to wonder if they are a hundred year old remains from a shipwreck or simply a bottle that fell overboard… They could be anything, and the possibilities seemed endless. I think it is amazing to consider the story behind something so simple, and the history of something in my hand. What are your thoughts on this?